I don’t feel like approaching this subject but I’m quite frustrated right now. I hope those mothers who breastfeed and had similar problems could give an opinion or two.
Before I delivered, I’ve read up a lot of info on breastfeeding and was quite determined to try, regardless. It was challenging at first but I persevered – when I came back home the first week my nights were filled with Aisyah’s cluster feeding – almost every hour! She slept so well during the day but at night it was quite a problem especially for Mr Hubby – he’s got a long working day and having to put up with baby’s temperament took a toll on our discourse. While he thought that my milk wasn’t enough and pressed me to change to formula, I stubbornly declined and said it was normal. I’ve never felt this tired in my life – even the sleepless nights of my masters papers previously wasn’t this tiring. However I wanted so much to breastfeed that I put up with everything and upon my mom’s visit, I urged her to bring me to buy breastpumps. Was quite religious pumping on daily basis but like I mentioned earlier – at most I could get was 1 1/2 oz. But I kept feeding Aisyah on demand so my milk flow would be smoother. Only at nights I get agitated because not only from the fatigue, but also worried of stressing my husband.
So I decided to introduce a bit of formula to Aisyah at night, once . My paed recommended 3 types – Enfalac A+, Similac Adv. and Mamil’s Gold. I tried Enfalac and baby had constipation and colic. She took the milk well at first but by noon her colic starts. Then I stopped and brought her back to my paed. He gave me Similac lactose-free to try and I fed her that once too. The constipation stops but colic still lingered. Poor Aisyah, she’s a real sweet baby and not temperamental at all. She only cries when she’s hungry or potty. So when she got colic it was really nerve-wrecking to see her miserable. I stopped all formula and just breastfeed on demand. Sometimes I gave her both breasts if she’s still hungry.
I still pump my milk nonetheless – but never got enough amount to store or feed her fully. Whenever I meet people who can pump up to 8 oz and have a full storage of milk to feed their babies for months-stretch, I feel funny about myself. I knew by literature that every mother’s milk is enough for their child but how come I can’t pump like them? While it’s quite stupid to linger on that matter and just feed her with my breastmilk, I feel the need to supplement her with formula at times when I need to. I don’t intend to go full-front on formula but alternate it with breastmilk accordingly. I also learn that most babies were fed a variety of formula brand till they could find something suitable, but does it have to induce miserable colic, constipation, etc along the way? How do you guys cope with that?
And my milk trivia continues…